Thursday, September 8, 2016

Yearning to awaken.

Thoughts before heading off to the workplace, influenced by epic cinematic music by Zack Hemsey.

There are times when I wonder if I am in some sort of an Inception-like universe. Nothing feels real. Nothing makes sense. In so many instances, I have no idea what I'm doing--what purpose do I serve in this existence. How I envy normal people. They go about their lives without a care, and I suppose that assumption is incorrect, not to mention unwise. Everyone has issues. Minds of their own filled with a million concerns, only they're not the same as mine.

Looking too much at the bigger picture. So big, it's a Herculean task to comprehend it all. I guess that's why university professors, the most brilliant intellectuals--that lot--so many of them happen to be eccentric, bordering on the insane.

Probably just like me now, wondering if all this is a dream. A really bad dream. And if I finally find enough resolve to deal death upon myself, I would wake up. Just like in Inception.

That movie is a total mindfuck, mind you. I love it.


2 comments:

  1. I saw that movie "Inception". At least I think I did...now I'm not so sure.

    Are you a "the top keeps spinning" or a "the top fell over" kind of person?

    The end meant a lot to me, as I have not been with my own son enough.

    When I was young, I fantasized that the world a all a production. Like, as we travelled, crews ahead of us were busy building fake towns. If I was clever enough, or they were careless, I might find a copy of the "Big Script" laying around.

    Of course, that is the movie "The Truman Show", but I had the idea years before! Of course, if I directed "The Truman Show", it would have a Lot More Sex! And I would lock the doors so that annoying "minder" guy can't interrupt me having evil, degrading sex with my fake wife. Vibrator and condoms product placement!

    Sir Steve

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