Saturday, January 31, 2015

Of dream wardrobes.


"I wish I had a boyfriend. I wish he lived in the wardrobe on a coat hanger. Whenever I wanted, I could get him out and he'd look at me the way boys do in films, as if I'm beautiful."
~ Jenny Downham, Before I Die


Would that wishes like that could come true. Someday, perhaps, when pigs fly and hell freezes over. 

Friday, January 30, 2015

Cue out.

FYI, that new rule I just imposed, the others have you to thank for it.

Ah, the classiness. I'll just pretend I didn't hear you say it.

So it gets personal now, huh?

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

...

My shift's almost over, and tomorrow happens to be my day off. I've got one thing to rant about before I head home. Just a short rant, to relieve the stress.


Dear Superior,

You do not order your subordinate to call a third party and request a copy of an invoice you need to get your hands (or eyes) on by 5.00pm, at fucking 4.45. You were lucky I managed to get it on time. No one wants to entertain such a crazy request. Most would tell you to fuck off and wait until tomorrow.

That's it. Done.

Just a small bit of randomness.


I bruise easily
So be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave
Like a love heart cut on a tree
I bruise easily
Can't scratch the surface without moving me underneath
I bruise easily...

~Natasha Bedingfield, I Bruise Easily~


One question: Is this a song for people with thrombocytopenic purpura?

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Ana majnuna.


For the sake of one wish yet unfulfilled he thought but little of everything else that heaven had granted him. That is how human beings are made! If prayers remain unanswered, do we ever reflect that it may be for our good? We feel sure that we know our needs, yet the future is veiled from our eyes. The thread of our fate ends outside the visible world; and what today we mistake for a padlock keeping us out, we may tomorrow find to be a key that lets us in.
~ Nizami Ganjavi, The Story of Layla and Majnun


So sick of what I've been seeing on the news these recent days. Let's drown it out with a generous helping of epic poetry.

You know, after all the damage we've done to this world we're supposed to take care of, the notion of a second Great Deluge is very welcome indeed.

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Janvier.

The initial plan was to go straight home, then sleep through the countdown.

That didn't happen.

Instead, I ended up on the hotel rooftop, lounging on a wicker chair, a glass (my second) of Malbec in my hand, discussing philosophy and global politics--at half an hour to midnight. Another guest who eventually became a friend, despite the fact that we just met the day before. I keep being told that I make really delightful company. The fact that my romantic relationships keep getting messed up is something I find utterly baffling.

I'd clocked out after the shift handover, then slipped quietly upstairs. So quietly that none of the colleagues would have known where I had gone. He referred to himself as M--"So you can pretend you're working for MI-6, Miss Bond". That came shortly after he commented on the somewhat unsettling nature of the topics we touched on. "You, my dear, are a very dangerous person."

His wit seemed to have a permanently-sharp edge. A quality I couldn't help but admire. That wit made me lose track of the minutes. Before we knew it, fireworks filled the sky with bursts of color and booming noise. Conversation was no longer possible, so we stood and watched the display in silence.

Fifteen minutes of silence, taking in the sights, the sounds and the oohs and aahs of two more guests who had joined us minutes earlier.

"Happy new year," he said, offering his hand for me to shake. 

"Happy new year, M," I reciprocated.

He reached for the Malbec. We'd emptied the bottle. Delicious to the last drop. It reminded me of night shifts with the best friend--sitcoms, figs, glasses of red, and not a single guest in-house. Definitely not employee-of-the-month material. Those were good times indeed.

My head throbbed. I'd totally forgotten about it. Three days, on-and-off, still no sign of it going away. A brief respite, yes--like the previous hour, but it would flare up again as soon as you thought it was finally coming to an end. A visit to the doctor's office appears to be in order. Let's just hope I could keep this red down long enough to avoid losing it to the sink.

Yes, the sink. Throwing up into porcelain thrones is just not my thing.

Another half hour of talking, then I called it a night. There was an intruder in my bedroom, hiding under the covers. My ears were assaulted by unbelievably shrill meowing. Unbelievable, because he can fit comfortably in my palms. A tiny thing, but loud as fuck. That's Obi-Wan for you. My little Padawan. I should change my name to Qui-Gon Jinn.

On normal days, I would chuck him into his box next to the fridge. This time, I let him purr me to sleep.

Bienvenue, Janvier!


P/S: This post was penned (yes, literally penned) on January 1st. Unfortunately, unlike most of you, I had to work on New Year's Day. Belated as it is, I'm still determined to make this the first ever post for 2015. Now that reminds me of one more thing. I need to submit that application form for my TESOL program.